To Steal a Whale Bone

Essay by Devon Fredericksen
Photographs by Josué Rivas
Illustrations by Lily Qian

Few places command the democratization of discovery quite like the intertidal zone. On the Long Beach Peninsula in Washington state, there’s an unspoken understanding that any found detritus is fair game. Everyone looks for treasure. Across the wrack line of high tide, people comb the scattered ephemera, swing metal detectors, gather flotsam, hold sea glass up to the sun. Over the last three decades, I’ve returned to the peninsula hundreds of times, though I never discovered any real riches until I met the whale.

Between November 2021 and February 2023, I observed the slow decay of a humpback whale on the north flank of the peninsula. When I first found it, the carcass had the deflated look of a hot air balloon lying in a heap, like it had been dead for weeks. I’d never seen a beached whale before, and I was surprised by its size, thinking it should have been bigger—the length of a school bus, at least. Instead, it was no longer than a sedan, and I wondered whether this meant it was a calf.

On my first encounter, the beach was empty of other humans, so I knelt, pressed my hand against the body, which had more give than I was expecting, like a waterbed mattress wrapped in supple leather. Startled by how animate it felt, I began to cry. The body seemed too exposed here, swarming with flies and pecking gulls, ringed with tire tracks. I almost wanted to lean my weight against it, heave it toward the privacy of its blue home.

In the months that followed, I returned to the whale again and again, each time noticing how the carcass was more tattered and bronzed, how the tides shoved the lifeless tail into unnatural positions.

Eventually, one of the whale’s vertebrae was exposed, big as an adult human’s ribcage. It was magnificent, and I imagined how such a beautiful object might look on my mantle. I wondered: Could I take such a thing? I worried that if I didn’t, someone else would pry it, without ceremony, from the corpse. Someone who hadn’t come to know the whale like I had.

I would later learn that in the U.S., a cetacean’s “hard parts”—bones, teeth, ivory—from a marine mammal not listed as endangered can be collected but must be reported to the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration (NOAA), but it’s illegal to gather whale parts still clinging with soft tissue, which was the case with the vertebra I wanted to take. By law, because of a deceased cetacean’s ecologically significant role in the intertidal food chain, bones must first be picked clean by scavengers before they can be collected by covetous humans. These statutes are only lightly enforced, though, which leaves the public to self-regulate, especially in rarely surveilled places like the Long Beach Peninsula.

I didn’t know any of this at the time. This meant the only thing standing between me and the whale bone was the story I believed about myself: that I would never take anything of real value that didn’t belong to me.

• • • •

Long Beach is a place more familiar to me than any other. It contoured my childhood the way water carves stone.

The peninsula frames the mouth of the Columbia River, the confluence of the world’s largest ocean and the West Coast’s most massive waterway, making it one of the most dangerous stretches of coastline in the world. Nicknamed “The Graveyard of the Pacific” on account of the hundreds of shipwrecks caused by this treacherous convergence, it’s this mixing of waters that creates such a rich ecosystem. Harbor seals bob in the surf like dark buoys. Tessellations of sanderlings pinwheel through the air at dusk. Species with sharp or shadowy names—razor clam, sword fern, ghost shrimp—thrive here.

For humans, the peninsula’s 28-mile stretch of coastline is lawless country. You can get away with a lot. Poaching those clams. Lighting a mattress on fire. Driving a truck at high speeds along the shoreline. Detonating fireworks in such unchecked profusion that the uninitiated fear the start of a war.

There’s a violence to this tract of ocean that provokes more violence.

Once, I saw how the sea’s teeth had ripped apart a 30-foot boat, coughed one half onto the peninsula, then spat the other half a quarter of a mile down shore. Within weeks, humans had torn apart and purloined the boat’s remains.

This helix of beauty and violence is what makes Long Beach so dynamic, defined by polarities. Like a blade or a cliff, the edge of the sea shows the flimsy line separating life from death. On one side: sandcastles, seashells, long walks. On the other: rip tides, hypothermia, drowning.

It’s a place that incites both awe and fear. Growing up, whenever I looked toward the Pacific Ocean—that seemingly endless, roiling expanse—the sensation in my body was equal parts wonderment and terror. 

When I was eight years old, my parents started building a second home on the north end of the peninsula, and while they hammered and hoisted, I explored the dunes, the shore, the coastal pine forest. An only child, I spent countless hours wandering the beach alone, learning the way scavengers—gulls, crabs, humans—made quick work of any meat, wood, or gleaming objects lying prone at low tide.

When I encountered the dead whale in my mid-thirties, it was notable, in part, because it lingered longer than anything I’d seen cast ashore.

• • • •

The deathspan of a beached whale is a study in endurance. For coastal ecosystems, such a massive carcass is a long-lasting reservoir of nutrient-rich tissue, blood, and bone, sustaining the appetites of local wildlife for several years. Often, though, coastal communities remove cetacean corpses from public beaches because of the staggering stench, the smell so conspicuous that the Dutch Republic nicknamed whale processing houses “stinkeries.”

Despite the odor, a 2022 review of cetacean carcass management makes the case for letting dead whales decompose in situ so they can fulfill their role as ecological treasure troves, feeding everything from bears and wolves to condors and gulls. With multiple studies showing cetacean populations making a comeback in the years since the 1986 ban on commercial whaling, the authors of the 2022 review speculate we may see a swell in strandings, which, if the in-situ decomposition approach is more widely adopted, could result in a greater number of whales left to decay on coastlines. A byproduct of this could mean an increased cache of valuable parts—bones, teeth, and ambergris—lying around for the taking.

There’s something about the thrill of discovery that can make a person believe what they’ve found is theirs now—to claim, to guard, to name.

Certainly, there is monetary incentive to claim such objects. On 1stdibs.com, whale vertebrae start at around $350 and sell for as much as $2,800. The going rate on the site for an antique scrimshawed sperm whale tooth is $4,500. In 2021, a group of Yemeni fishermen cut into the gut of a dead whale and found $1.5 million in ambergris, which accumulates in a sperm whale’s intestinal lining and is a prized fixative in the perfume industry.

My desire for the whale bone, though, wasn’t financial. The vertebra, a piece of something I had come to love, felt too valuable to sell.

• • • •

To execute my plan, I decided I would wait until midnight, dress in black clothing, and leave my headlamp behind. Cloud cover would spare me from casting long shadows. Though I didn’t know if there were legal consequences for robbing a whale corpse, I was still paranoid about getting caught.

The body lay about a mile down the beach. I resolved to take two pairs of shoes. Wearing one pair, I would walk to the wet sand, then travel north along the wet lip of shoreline so waves would erase my path. Near the body, I would change into my second pair of shoes before heading in the direction of the foredune. I hoped the different sets of footprints would make my trail untraceable to law enforcement.

Then what? Would I need a knife? A hatchet?

As midnight drew near, I sharpened the details of my plan until they glinted in my mind.

• • • •

Before construction, my parents made room for the beach house’s footprint. This meant chopping down shore pines on the 0.14-acre lot. Fresh in my young mind was The Lorax, Dr. Seuss’s controversial anti-logging children’s book. After my parents cut down the trees, I scanned the denuded landscape, heartbroken. I was similarly troubled when the owners of the adjacent northern lot laid a gravel driveway, ripping up the stand of prickly gorse that had cradled hummingbird hatchlings. I watched as the landscape transformed. Ocean-view vacation homes sprang up along the crest of the foredune where nesting grouses took refuge. A family built a house in the clearing where I’d watched a doe nurse two spotted fawns. 

My young mind somersaulted trying to understand how the owners of these properties, my parents included, could show such destructive disregard for the non-human inhabitants of this place. A question gnawed at my conscience: Are they thieves?

That I did not include myself in this moral inquiry only complicates the question.

• • • •

The idea of ownership has dominated the history of whaling. In places like Denmark, France, and the United Kingdom, stranded whales were dubbed “royal fish,” or the property of the dukes and monarchs. In the mid nineteenth century, the showman of a traveling exhibition carted around a rearticulated 95-foot blue whale that had stranded in the Netherlands. He’d agreed to return the whale to the Dutch king when the tour ended, but when Belgium and the Netherlands split, the showman worried the kings would quarrel over the skeleton, so he gave it to the Russian Academy of Sciences in St. Petersburg.

Prior to WWII, the open ocean was considered a space of aqua nullius, belonging to no one, but after the war ended, whaling nations met to decide how countries could lay claim to the ocean’s quarry.

For centuries, humans have turned whales into a veritable buffet to feed our appetite, industry, and wonder. We’ve devoured the meat, boiled the entrails for soup, and rendered the waxy components for candles, cosmetics, and lubrication for space race machinery. Out of baleen and whale bone, we’ve fashioned tongue scrapers, corsets, skirt hoops, fishing rods, riding whips, and shoehorns. We’ve stretched the heart membranes taut for drums and crushed the bones for fertilizer. We’ve dried and pulverized massive whale penises for performance-enhancing tonic and rearticulated entire skeletons to suspend titanic silhouettes in museums.

One could argue that, within the context of human ingenuity, our use of whales is resourceful, even responsible—especially when all the parts of a whale are used, which has long been the ethic of Indigenous whaling cultures. But that argument doesn’t hold water when the number of hunted whales far surpasses a whale population’s ability to sustain itself, which became the case when industrial whaling turned these captivating creatures into one of history’s most exploited resources.

By commercial whaling’s peak in the 1960s, humans hauled more than 80,000 whales from the oceans each year. Made gluttonous by such unfettered harvest, we nearly emptied the seas of the world’s largest mammals.

• • • •

My dad, keen to acquaint us with our second home, carted me around to every museum, cemetery, and interpretive kiosk along the peninsula. Peering into glass cases, I learned about the Chinook, people of the sea and cedar.

I was mesmerized by the artifacts on display—antler chisels, blades shaped from glass-like rocks, sweetgrass baskets dyed with bear grass and bog mud—how these objects seemed to demonstrate a different way of being human, one often romanticized or disparaged, but that operated within an ethic of endurance.

The tools made me think of the fishing sinker sitting in front of my grandmother’s fireplace. It was a stone bead a foot in diameter, the hole through it wide enough to pass a thick rope. The thing weighed at least 40 pounds. On visits, I would run my fingers over the sinker’s polished curves, rest my hand against the cool stone. My dad told me the sinker had likely been made by a Northern Straits Coast Salish fisherman. My great-grandfather had found it on his property on Lopez Island (called Sx’wálech by its original Lummi inhabitants). Sometimes, I wondered why the sinker wasn’t in a museum. As if a glass case was where it belonged.

On one of our Long Beach historical excursions, my dad and I stood atop the ancient basalt promontory near the mouth of the Columbia River, where Lewis and Clark had arrived in 1805. A place once home to condors. A place the Chinook people called Kah’eese but was renamed Cape Disappointment by a British trader.

After spending a miserable winter in unrelenting rain near the mouth of the Columbia, by March 1806 Lewis and Clark began preparing for their return journey east, but they discovered that they would need an additional canoe. They could not, however, find a Chinookan member who would sell them one. To the Chinook, canoes weren’t inanimate objects, but sacred, living members of the community.

With the blessing of both Lewis and Clark, four members of the expedition stole a canoe from a nearby Chinook village.

• • • •

There’s something about the thrill of discovery that can make a person believe what they’ve found is theirs now—to claim, to guard, to name.

As a child, I found the perfect hiding place in the dunes, a knoll just north of the access road to the beach. There, I buried seashells, coins, feathers, bones. I named the place My Hill, the possessive pronoun deliberate, a way to signal my intent to protect such a special place from development and trash and parents.

• • • •

Though cetaceans inspire collective awe, their parts often filter into private possession. When forty-one whales beached on the Oregon coast in 1979, author and nature writer Barry Lopez wrote in his essay “A Presentation of Whales,” that, “police arrested a man in a camouflage suit caught breaking teeth out of a whale’s jaw with a hammer and chisel.”

To be in the presence of such a prize teases the impulse to take, whether, as Lopez writes, it’s “a Polaroid of oneself standing over a whale, a plug of flesh removed with a penknife, [or] a souvenir squid beak plucked deftly from an exposed intestine by a scientist.”

On public beaches in Washington—a state where private beach ownership can extend to the low water mark—scientists often get first dibs when whales wash ashore. Jessie Huggins, the stranding coordinator at Cascadia Research in Washington state, told me that when beachgoers encounter her team carving into a deceased whale, the response is mixed, with reactions ranging from horrified looks to people asking, “Can I have a piece?’”

U.S. officials sometimes remove the more coveted parts of carcasses to deter the public from performing surgery. In the case of a 40-foot sperm whale that beached on the Oregon Coast in January 2023, scientists extracted the jawbone, an impressive and sought-after piece of a sperm whale’s skeleton. However, the jawbone’s removal prompted deliberation over which entity would become the appropriate custodian. The parks department wanted to display it at a visitor’s center. However, a local tribe also expressed interest. (To date, ownership of the jawbone remains suspended in limbo).

I visited the Oregon sperm whale one week after it washed ashore, and I wasn’t the only one who made the pilgrimage. Though that section of beach is already home to the rusted remains of a shipwreck, a popular tourist destination, the appearance of the whale ushered a new tide of visitors. By the time I arrived on a winter afternoon, a clot of cars had filled the site. Couples and families posed for photos upwind of the carcass to avoid the overpowering stink on the lee side. Children trotted around the mound. Some people snapped selfies while others stood in contemplative silence or bent toward the body, peering at the stringy flesh, the blood pooling beneath. We all wanted something from the whale. I had come because I was trying to understand what, from the experience, I hoped to take.

• • • •

The ticking clock above the cabin’s kitchen window alerted me to each passing second as the evening crept closer to midnight. I sat on the purple IKEA couch waiting, unable to focus on the novel in my lap. I worried that looking up regulatory barriers would weaken my resolve, yet I also fretted about law enforcement saddling me with a sizeable fine. 

I reached for my phone. Reception was poor, though, and the page wouldn’t load. This seemed like a sign.

I pictured the vertebra gleaming on my mantel, nestled among the deer antlers, petrified driftwood, rodent skulls, and other objects I’d removed from the natural world. I imagined houseguests asking about the whale bone. Then I tried to imagine the story I would tell—the one that would explain how it came into my possession.

• • • •

Whenever I tell people about my family’s cabin, I hear the defensiveness in my voice. I launch into unsolicited explanation, intent to make clear we aren’t that kind of family—the kind with a glut of funds and a fancy summer house. We’re hardworking people of modest means who built a 1,280-square-foot house on a slim budget with our bare hands, only 130 square feet larger than the house I grew up in. Each time, I hear myself stumbling over my words, unsure what I’m trying to get at, except maybe to convince myself we’re separate from a larger issue.

Only in recent years have I learned about the darker plot points of my white family’s history and about the ripple effect, over many generations, that positioned us to own multiple properties.

“Behind every great fortune lies a great crime,” goes Honoré de Balzac’s paraphrased line from Le Pèret Goriot.

Though my family doesn’t have a fortune, we have been quite fortunate. It has taken me a long time to see the beach house for what it is: a clear marker of generational wealth tied to the most violent act of theft in American history.

• • • •

In 2022, my parents visited North Carolina to learn more about my father’s lineage. When they returned, they presented me with a musty, clothbound copy of Jules Verne’s Dick Sand, an adventure novel about a boy working on a whaling vessel. My parents had taken the book, with permission, from the personal library of George Washington Hayes, my great-great-great-grandfather. Though his colonial-style mansion is no longer property of the Hayes family, the couple who lives there now have made themselves stewards of the house as an unofficial museum.

From hundreds of pages of preserved records, I learned that George Washington Hayes was born in Jackson County, North Carolina in 1804. His Scotch-Irish parents died when he was young, so he went to Swain County to live with relatives in the heart of Cherokee lands. It was there that he made Cherokee friends and learned to speak the language fluently.

A connection to place is how we make sense of the world. A focus on space is how we divvy up the world—mapping, allotting, and managing—upending deep, ancient relationships to land.

In the 1830s, because of Hayes’s Cherokee ties, General Winfield Scott enlisted his help in the forced removal of the Cherokee Indian Nation from North Carolina, Georgia, and Tennessee—all so white settlers could grow cotton on the vacated land. As an interpreter, Hayes played an active role in the ethnic cleansing that displaced approximately 100,000 people from multiple tribes, a deadly exodus that became known as the Trail of Tears. For his service, Hayes was awarded 700 acres, on which he built the mansion that still stands.

• • • •

In its most technical sense, the word legacy has come to mean “property left by a will,” though the word is also used to refer to long-lasting impact.

In his will, George Washington Hayes left his wife all his “property,” referring to both his land and his slaves, stipulating that his wife could maintain “the use of all such Negros [sic] as she may wish to keep or to controle [sic] . . .”

After my parents handed me the stack of family records from their trip to North Carolina, I didn’t look through the documents for months. To confront the connection between myself and Hayes would mean having to claim this dark inheritance. To own it. I didn’t know what to do with that kind of responsibility.

Inheritance has a weight to it, dragging along the heaviest questions.

If my parents don’t have to sell the Long Beach property to finance potential long-term care in their old age, the cabin will become part of my inheritance. When I consider this, there’s a question that nags: To whom would the property belong after I’m gone?

In my late thirties, I don’t have children. I’m told there’s still time to decide. Such a decision, though, feels too enormous, the consequences of either path provoking both terror and awe. 

• • • •

Throughout the Middle Ages, the possession of hierozoika, natural artifacts like whale bones, amplified the power of the Church and feudal lords because the Gospels regarded such objects as sacred. It was understood, historian Klaus Barthlemess writes, that the owner of whale bones held “the world in his hands.”

It’s an ancient tug. To reach for something beyond oneself by grasping at something sacred.

I feel the strongest urge to take a memento when I’m overwhelmed with awe—a flash of recognition that my existence is just a blink. Standing atop a mountain summit, awash in the kind of wonderment that nearly brings me to my knees, I’ll take a few photos, tuck a stone into my pocket.

My mountain photos never do justice to the alpine light, though. Stones always look duller, somehow, displayed in my house.

“Wildness cannot be collected and still remain wild,” Robin Wall Kimmerer writes in her book Gathering Moss. “By the very act of owning, the thing becomes an object, no longer itself.”

I’m not alone in the impulse to collect tokens of wonder. During Europe’s Scientific Revolution, the wealthy curated wunderkammern, or cabinets of curiosities, which often included animal specimens. In his Noema essay, “Finding Awe Amid Everyday Splendor,” journalist Henry Wismayer writes that these displays “. . . were partly an ostentation: a show of their owner’s discernment. But they were also a cognitive tool. Awe, and its milder cousin ‘wonder,’ had come to be seen as an aesthetic prompt for the inquiring mind.” These objects were an attempt to make tangible the quicksilver consistency of awe. To turn it into something that could be contained or accessed at will.

Encountering a whale, even a dead one, can summon a swell of awe. The sheer size of whales recalibrates our sense of scale, the blood vessels of an average blue whale so considerable a mature trout could swim through them.

For me, the Long Beach whale dredged up a deep ache—maybe because whale populations have dwindled so considerably. Or maybe because it reminded me that someday I, too, will be gone.

The translation for the Latin phrase memento mori is “remember that you will die.” To take a memento, then, in its original sense, is to be awestruck by the raw terror of one’s own mortality. It’s an attempt to hold onto life itself, to tighten one’s grip around that which is temporary—a way of saying I was here—even as time slips like water through our fingers.

• • • •

When it comes to after-death care for beached whales, this country’s post-colonial track record isn’t pretty. U.S. officials have often hauled the bodies out of sight, trucking them to landfills or weighing them down with scrap metal to tow back out to sea.

Sometimes, trying to remove the mess only makes things messier. In 1970, Oregon State Highway Division officials planted half a ton of dynamite on the lee side of a whale, hoping the blast would break apart the body into snack-sized bites for seagulls and crabs. Instead, the explosion showered spectators and cars with ropey organs and chunks of blubber, one piece so massive it totaled a car more than a quarter of a mile away.

As soon as a whale strands in the U.S., coastal officials are tasked with managing, on the fly, a jumble of competing priorities: collecting scientific data, corralling the public, and determining what to do with the body. Within this pragmatic, efficient agenda, there’s not a lot of room for ceremony.

By contrast, coastal villages in Vietnam worship whales as deities and host proper burial ceremonies on beaches or in dedicated whale graveyards. After three years, locals exhume the bones and lay them to rest in a whale temple, where anyone can come to pay their respects. Some Japanese communities honor the souls of dead whales with an equivalent reverence to deceased humans. Similarly, whaling tribes from the Kamchatka Peninsula to Vancouver Island mourn the death of a hunted whale for three days, as long as that for a human.

In the face of the unfathomable—death, longing, impermanence—ritual is the human attempt to restore balance, to create connection, to offer meaning.

• • • •

Midnight came, but I didn’t budge from the couch. I wanted the whale bone, but if my calculated, elaborate heist was any indication, I was too anxious a prospective criminal to follow through with my plan. I’d begun to feel a little ridiculous—not cut out for a night of crime. I also felt unsettled, for reasons I couldn’t yet articulate.

Emptyhanded, I went to bed.

The next morning, I jogged the beach until I reached the whale, only to find that the vertebra was gone. Someone else had taken it.

Later that day, I watched as two white men hacked at the whale’s spine, intent to dislodge the next vertebra.

• • • •

Whales bring out “the best and worst of human behavior,” Barry Lopez writes.

To manage this polarity, U.S. officials try to discourage the public from plundering the bodies of dead whales. “If people mess with them,” says Michael Milstein, public affairs officer at NOAA, “we’re losing the story of what these animals can tell us.”

Whale samples paint a more coherent picture of their role in ocean ecology while also informing conservation strategies that may help to replenish their numbers.

Their bones and tissue tell us something about whales. They also tell us something about humans. About the ways our story twines with theirs. Whale necropsies point to possible causes of death: ship strikes, pollution, biotoxins linked to warming seas. It’s only when we construct a narrative around these denouements that we begin to understand our role in the plot. 

Each time I tell the story of the night I almost stole a whale bone, someone invariably interrupts to ask, “You took it, right?” As if this is a foregone conclusion. As if there’s no point in finishing the story.

• • • •

Watching the two men hack at the whale’s spine, I was disturbed by the sight of them, by the conspicuous violence of the act. Sure, I’d concocted a plan to do the same thing, but I hadn’t gone through with it—in broad daylight, no less. 

In an uncharacteristically bold move, I jogged up to the men.

“Just so you know,” I said, “there’s a hefty fine if you’re caught.” Though I still had no idea whether this was true, I tried to sound like a confidante offering a tip.

I was hoping they would tell me they were scientists. I was hoping they would justify their actions with a reason more satisfying than that they simply saw a thing they wanted and decided they would take it.

They didn’t offer an explanation, and after an awkward silence, I turned and jogged away.

• • • •

Recently, my dad asked me if I wanted to inherit the stone sinker my great-grandfather found on Sx’wálech.

“No,” I said. “I think it should be returned.”

“I agree,” my dad said. “But first I wanted to make sure you didn’t have an attachment to it.”

The truth was, I did feel attached. It was a beautiful object. I wanted it to be mine because I’d loved it all my life. Still, I knew that if it came into my possession, I would think only of how, though the sinker had been in my family for four generations, it didn’t belong to us.

• • • •

As I jogged away from the two men, tears ran down my face. I was surprised by the force of my emotions, an animal panic rising in my body.

Death comes for us all. But did it have to come like that? Scavengers hacking at the leftovers until there was nothing left?

I decided I had to know what the men chose to do. Would they still feel entitled to their claim even after my bluff? I needed them to leave the whale bone alone. I needed them to feel morally compromised, to question their actions. I needed there to be an alternate ending to the same old story.

After I was a good distance away from the men, I turned at a right angle and headed toward the dunes. Once there, I ducked into the grass and crept back in the direction of the whale. Like a madwoman, I army-crawled to the top of the dune, where I could watch the men, who were now walking away from the whale. One of them was toting a bucket, though I couldn’t tell whether there was anything inside. When the men shrank to faraway dots down the beach, I left my hiding place and bolted toward the mound.

As soon as I was near enough to see that they had left the vertebra, relief swept over me. Then, revulsion. Once again, I felt the same reflexive entitlement from the previous day. I wondered whether I should seize the whale bone before anyone else could claim it. I knelt next to the body and burst into tears again.

Though my motives had come from a place of protection—even love—I was no longer sure how different I was from the other would-be thieves.

The next day, I returned to the whale and found that the vertebra was gone.

• • • •

Whenever I visit the peninsula, even when dressed in my well-worn red Costco rain jacket, locals sniff out the city on me. “Are you visiting?” they ask. I tell them I live in Portland, Oregon, though I often feel tempted to explain my connection to the area—that I’ve learned where to forage wild mushrooms and how to dig for razor clams at night. That I know where a certain bald eagle perches in the dunes at three o’clock in the afternoon on clear days. That I’ve studied the way the weather moves.

I’m eager to prove my fluency of the landscape, to show I belong here, too. But I stay quiet, self-conscious that the cabin is one of many vacation homes that remains unoccupied nearly year-round.

In his book, Chinook Resilience: Heritage and Cultural Revitalization on the Lower Columbia River, anthropologist Jon D. Daehnke writes that, “although place is primary and central to human existence, its role has been undercut by an emphasis on ‘space.’” Place, as he puts it, is a “container of memory, rootedness, and identity,” while space is “abstract, empty, and bureaucratic.” A connection to place is how we make sense of the world. A focus on space is how we divvy up the world—mapping, allotting, and managing—upending deep, ancient relationships to land.

“Believing yourself a possessor of land is a damaging practice,” Cole Arthur Riley writes in her book, This Here Flesh: Spirituality, Liberation, and the Stories That Make Us. “The land I live on is not mine to have but mine to nurture. I am responsible.”

In what ways is Long Beach still a home, even if it isn’t mine? In what ways am I still tied to this place—still responsible for it—even if I’m only an occasional visitor?

Even after I’m gone?

• • • •

In working with the Chinook to produce a decolonized record of cultural revitalization, Daehnke observed how, at the heart of Chinookan culture, there exists an ethic of reciprocal heritage, as he terms it. Maintaining this heritage relies on active engagement with reciprocal responsibilities.

In Chinookan culture, the idea of reciprocity stems from the belief that, although non-human objects have agency and exist independently of humans, they are nevertheless “entangled by a sense of kinship,” Daehnke writes. “They rely on each other to make an appropriate path through the world.”

The Chinook, for example, believe a canoe is a member of the community, which means the link between a Chinook member and a canoe is a relationship in the most emotional sense of the word. The Chinook nurture this mutual exchange by implementing rituals that honor the interdependence between the human and non-human. Because they receive something from the canoe, the Chinook want to give the canoe something in return.

• • • •

You took it, right?

This question, always, whenever I tell the story of the whale bone.

Never once has someone asked whether I offered anything to the whale. A ceremony. A prayer. A bouquet of bull kelp.

• • • •

More than two hundred years after the members of Lewis and Clark’s expedition stole a canoe for their return journey, the Chinook Indian Nation received a 37-foot offering of reparation.

Carlota “Lotsie” Clark, a seventh-generation direct descendant of William Clark organized the disbursement of nearly $30,000 from the Clark family trust to build a dugout canoe, to be returned to the Chinook.

On September 24, 2011, the Chinook Indian Nation held a welcome ceremony for the canoe, circling it five times, the central number in Chinookan culture. With fragrant cedar boughs, they scrubbed and cleansed the interior and exterior of the hollowed hull. The name given to the canoe was Kthlmin, after a Chinookan chief. Kthlmin is also the Chinookan word for moon. The name meant to honor canoe culture, which relies on knowledge of the moon’s tidal pull.

The next summer, Kthlmin would make its maiden voyage to Chinook Point for the Chinook Indian Nation’s First Salmon Ceremony. It would also carve through coastal waters on its way to Tribal Journeys, an annual, weeks-long gathering of thousands of Pacific Northwest Native American/First Nations citizens.

Tribal Journeys has been central to the resurgence of canoe culture for the Chinook and many regional tribes. It has become a way for the Chinook to reconnect with a part of their heritage that was stripped away by colonial dispossession.

“There’s an ownership in Tribal Journeys,” Chinook Vice Chairman Sam Robinson says in Daehnke’s book. “This is yours. This is your journey.”

When the Chinook approach the shores of another tribal community during Tribal Journeys, they must request permission to land, and they must receive permission. When dozens of canoes are waiting to come ashore, such protocol can last hours. But there is no rushing the ritual. Relationships need time.

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In August 2024, my dad carried the 40-pound stone sinker to the director of the Lopez Island Historical Museum so that it could change hands from my family to the Lummi people, who’d once had three longhouses on Flat Point, where my great-grandfather found the sinker on Sx’wálech.

When my dad told me the sinker had left our family, I felt a sense of loss. Also, release. By removing the sinker from my inheritance, my dad had shifted the trajectory of my family’s story.

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Even in death, a whale continues to nourish that which sustained it in life. In their book How Far the Light Reaches, Sabrina Imbler writes, “If a whale’s life is a marvel, its death is its legacy.” 

The passing down of accumulated wealth is a human attempt to sustain future generations. But though the modern usage of the word legacy has embedded itself in materialism, there’s a more ancient translation. It stems from the root leg, which means “to gather words.”

I see now there was wisdom in my dad’s approach—that if we insist on spending time in a place, we must learn its stories. In the form of stories, words have real weight. They anchor us to a place. They tether us to a deeper understanding of what it means to be human—and how to be. Though intangible, they might be the most lasting human legacy. If oral and written histories are any measure, the stories we tell about ourselves—and the stories that are told about us—can be more enduring than bones.

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In 2015, the Chinook Indian Nation began sending a letter a day to both President Obama and former president Bill Clinton. These letters contained Chinookan history, documentation of traditions, depictions of artistry, and stories.  

Despite more than a year’s worth of letters, the U.S. federal government still refused to recognize the Chinook Indian Nation as an official tribe.

What was created by the letters, though, was a substantial cultural and historical archive. It was legacy in the original sense—words that had been gathered, which could then be passed down. It showed how, despite colonialism, despite the Chinook Indian Nation’s miniscule landholdings, and despite the lack of federal acknowledgement, an ancient culture has persisted.

The archive isn’t just a documentation of the past. It’s an intention to endure.

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Two months after watching the men hack at the whale, I returned to the beach. I had to wander up and down the shore multiple times before I could confirm to myself that the whale had disappeared. I didn’t know whether it had been buried by sand, removed by humans, or pulled into the ocean by a muscular tide. I only knew a sense of loss. Also, release.

I walked the shoreline, the ocean’s white edge gliding toward me, suds of seafoam glittering in the sun. The water was neat and crisp, like a starched tablecloth ironed smooth. It looked so inviting it would have been easy to forget what lies beneath the glistening surface: a cold force that reaches, seizes.

I kept walking.

I passed sand dollars and honey-colored clamshells, crab claws and skeins of kelp—treasures I left untouched. After turning east to walk up the road that would take me past My Hill, it occurred to me that I hadn’t visited the grassy knoll in years. But because there was no longer a well-worn path from my footsteps, I decided instead to enjoy the ocean view from the road’s crest.

Looking toward the horizon, I wondered whether the remains of the whale had been carried back to the water, made supple again by the ocean’s silver rinse. I brought my fingertips to my lips, kissed them, and blew a prayer toward the sea. It was a small offering, but it was something. An intention.

My thoughts turned toward the cabin, about how one day I might inherit it. For the first time, I began to ask myself what I would do if I accepted such a gift—what I would give to this place in return.

 

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