TG: I love another Outside magazine piece that you wrote, revisiting Rolling Nowhere, but with an important change: you were not alone; you had your son with you. It strikes me as an interesting piece, of course, all on its own, but it’s also a bit about the responsibilities and ethics of immersion journalism. But then, on the other hand, one of the things that is such an important theme in Cheap Land Colorado is this idea that there is some degree of polarization and division in the country that comes from this difficulty that we have of separating ourselves from our own experiences and going into some new world on our own. So there’s this kind of interesting tension between wanting to go out and experience new things as a way of connecting, but then also, as you said, it is also a dangerous world where there may be unintended consequences of attempting to connect. You have responsibilities—as a father, as a citizen—to safety and security. And so as you pursue those curiosities responsibly, how do you strike a balance?
TC: Such a good question. The Outside article you’re referring to is about my son and I riding the rails together. When my son was about 17, he finally read the copy of Rolling Nowhere that I had given him years before. One day he told me he was reading it, and I said, “How’s that going?” And he said, “Oh, it’s good. I’m liking it.” And then a few days later, the other shoe drops, and I had basically been planning for this since the day he was born, which was, “So, Dad, you know how you did that—does that mean I could do it?” And I knew I couldn’t say no, because I did it. My dad let me, but I did know that I thought it would be a good idea to offer to go with him and make sure he didn’t make dumb mistakes. I did it purely out of self-protection, and out of wanting to be a good father and not lead to my son hurting himself.
Fortunately, he liked the idea of going together, so we took that trip together, but it had a completely different vibe. Instead of being in my twenties and thrilling to the wind blowing across my face as I cross the Sierra Nevada Mountains, I’m like looking at my son near that same door of the boxcar and saying, “Stand back a little, get back a little, the train can jerk all of a sudden.” And so I was just this worrywart the whole time, and that’s not generally who I am, but I felt so responsible. And we actually talked about it one day. He said, “I can see you’re really worried.” And he puts his arm around me, and says, “You don’t need to be so worried. I’m careful.” And, oh, my God, that was a big, big deal. And so is that reckless youth catching up with a person at middle age? Maybe to some degree it is. Am I less interested in taking chances now than I was before? Probably.
I think if I had not written my prison book Newjack up until now that I could conceivably still get the job, but I’m not so sure I would want it. Now, I’m sixty-six years old, and I don’t bounce back quite as fast from injuries as I used to. And while I’ve never thought there’s much of a chance of getting killed in prison—and that was truly my bottom line, what are the odds that would happen? They were quite slim, but the odds of getting in an altercation, of getting hurt, are not so small, and especially if you’re doing the job in a semi-aggressive way, you could get hurt. And I’m less interested in getting hurt now.
TG: And yet, there’s still clearly that impulse for connection—and it’s more needed now than ever for a whole host of reasons. I think you mentioned in the beginning of Cheap Land Colorado that the 2016 election had caught you a bit by surprise and you had the sense like many of us in the media that we hadn’t been out in the world enough and hadn’t been talking to people enough to even know the direction that our own country was headed in.
TC: We have allowed ourselves to be placed in silos—I think unwittingly via algorithms that feed us info we are interested in. I see your posts, and you see mine—and multiply that exponentially and I think you have some serious social division. And it takes a conscious effort to try to dismantle some of that and put yourself in a place where somebody from a completely different algorithm is going to be holding forth on Obama birtherism, the Hillary hating, or various conspiracy theories. I’ve had to listen to much of this over the years that I researched this book. I had to bite my tongue many times, because often it’s malarkey and it won’t stand up to any scrutiny. And occasionally, I will point out a reason: no, oil is not going up in cost because of Joe Biden—it’s a global market for oil, and we have limited agency in setting the price of oil. But you come back with that and everybody gets quiet. And so who are you but Mr. Smarty Pants and do you want to be that person? Or are you going to not laugh at that joke? Which can be kind of an ostentatious objection to not laugh at certain jokes. So it takes some effort to make yourself available to a whole different understanding of the world. And, yeah, the hardest part of the research for Cheap Land Colorado was the moments when I was party to some of these conversations and had to decide how much to hold my tongue.